Cleanse

Ruined sucks to write about oneself but I think I really have no choice. It's been clawing through my mind and I can't seem to talk to anyone about it. Started this about 5months ago. The hurt was too poignant to continue. When you dedicate all you have to a cause or to someone and you find out you've gradually lost yourself in them and you have no control over yourself. Its a year now from when it all happened and the curtains were drawn and I'm still healing. 1 year and I still have the scars to remind me of a time when I was in my lowest. So I tagged this ruined but now it has cleanse as the title cause the process has begun and from all indications its working. No matter what shit you're being dealt with, hang in there you gon pull through soon just grab onto the hands out there trying to pull you out.